Day 12
Yay! I went walking today. I don’t know how I got up and did it. I had about 3-4 hours of sleep, as I think my infant is getting his brother’s cold. And I had the middle kid get into my bed about 4 times to warm up and sleep. MK, middle kid, usually does this when he isn’t feeling well. He used to do it every night, but it gets less and less because I have had to tell him with the new baby that I need my sleep. It hurts me to send him back to his bed, since I know this stage only lasts so long, but I have to if I want to keep what ounce of sanity I have left. I love my boys.
I also went to weight watchers today. I meet up with a friend which gives me accountability. I didn’t want to weigh myself, but I did. I lost 1/2 lb. Wahoo! It’s a start. I was really good about writing down my points the first two days, then I got overwhelmed with reading my book for bookclub, and writing a blog entry daily, and having sex…and taking care of 3 children. I get 35 points a day because I am breast feeding right now. I got to about 70 points the first day and I stopped counting. I have probably been averaging 100 points a day these last few months and not even realizing it. I am so hungry with baby and tons of cravings. I don’t know how breast feeding moms lose weight while breast feeding! I only start losing weight after I stop breast feeding. And I don’t want to wait another year to lose the weight. I want to be at my goal weight in one year. Accountability works for me. Let’s see if the wawa (Weight Watchers) works like the sex accountability works.
I thought of every other option of trying to have book club somewhere else tomorrow night. I wanted to have bookclub at someone else’s house, an amazing cabin hook up, a hotel or the perfect restaurant. Nothing sounded right or felt good. It was a combination of cleaning my house, and having it in the basement of my parents house that sends me to thinking of other places. I love hosting parties and love hosting bookclub. And my bc has been here several other times. It’s just that I want my own house!!! I finally decided I was having BC at my house and to get going on the organizing and cleaning. It feels so good to have an organized house. Organized house, organized life. I always think when I have people over that I need to have people over more often. If I didn’t entertain, I would never have a clean house.
It was late again on the sex thing. Last night was good with kissing and a happy ending. I hoped tonight would be too. It was. We did some sort of scissor position which was fun and we hadn’t done in a while. I didn’t try for an orgasm, I guess just too tired. 🙁