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Day 41

All I know is that it was bedtime again. Yesterday was a blur. Our baby boy decided to be up in the night from 2-6 am, sleep from 6-7:30 am and up again. We were so tired, as always, and tried to catch up on sleep when Baby took a morning nap. But we have other kids.

We did have a luscious meal made by moi, Chicken Tikka Masala, and our first fire in our fireplace for the season. We put the kids to bed and me making an attempt at writing my first blog since Day 31 was a sign that things could be getting back to normal. Hopefully I am back and that we are back to having sex everyday. I did really miss it.

We got into bed and did the routine of snuggling, DH tickling my back, and me thinking that I want to have sex but it’s hard to initiate when I am not “totally” in the mood. But I just made the move of turning around to face the DH. Believe me, this is a hard move to make and does not always happen. The past week of only having sex twice during my period and grumpiness, I didn’t even consider turning around. So having the thought of turning around is a good sign.

We did a lot of kissing and touching and caressing. DH got really hard, and he played with me and was tickling my vagina and playing with it and went inside with my fingers. It was feeling really good. DH went inside of me, but then I decided to have him get the vibrator and some KY liquid. We put that on, with the light of our phone, haha, and DH went inside of me. I decided to try the LELO while DH was inside of me which is always a crap shoot if I will attain an orgasm. It’s pretty rare if I get one. I don’t know why, but it feels like the penis distracts me from the feelings of an orgasm. Well, not this time! I was really into it and loving it. It was harder to contract since there is a penis inside of me. I don’t know if it prolonged the orgasm or helped it, but I did have a really great first orgasm of the night. It was not too long in coming and when I started to cum it was a really intense and long pre-orgasm until it climaxed and was a very nice calming after climax orgasm. Aaaah! What a great release. Much needed.

I went for a second orgasm. I got a second orgasm, but there was only the climax and contractions, but no feelings of deliciousness, just the physical act of it. I didn’t go for a third.

DH was getting into his body and was loving what was happening. His orgasm was pretty incredible and lasted a while. I don’t know if it was because I was squeezing him a lot since I was orgasaming and that was giving him extra intensity, or that it was just a good night. He came with a bang and I could tell it was a good one. He said that it was awesome, and that it could’ve been a continuation from the night before since he got interrupted with the DROID blasting out from my phone.

It was a great night. I even got a long back tickle afterwards. ūüôā

Day 40

This past week we had off and on sex and finally I make the move to my beloved husband to say, “YES!” I want sex, again. I miss it!”

We had a hard day of baby up every 2 hours all night long. Baby is getting worse with the “up all night long” these days. I had a super depressed day of not wanting to do anything…..at all. I had my cousin call and basically force herself to come and visit me. It was a much needed visit, even though mostly unwanted, but it got me out of my funk and feeling good about life again, and about myself.

I do need time spent with my 4 cousins to feel happy in my life. And I also need some good time spent with my 3 sisters. If I don’t get that, I get really sad, I don’t feel supported and I get down and out. I did an in depth discussion with one of my sisters letting her know that I did not feel supported and I need her more in my life. I miss her so much I was sad all week about it. Hopefully she got the message and at least we will talk on the phone more often. I hope to see her and her kids soon.

I was wanting to get to bed early as I did the night before, but also wanted to spend time with the hubby before, just even for an hour. He was massaging my legs and feet while I caught up on a couple of shows on Hulu. We finally went to bed around midnight, and he was givin g me such a great back tickle. He had been giving me lots of back tickles this past week, since we only had sex 3 times last week. I finished my period last Friday, but was really sad and depressed and didn’t feel like doing anything ever. again. But I had noticed that I had sex dreams with my husband, and that I had the urges to just romp his bones, but in real life, I had my body telling me I was tired and depressed.

But last night as he was tickling me, I turned toward him and snuggled on the side and leg on top of his crotch area. I love to snuggle on him. I was tickling his front side, which I know he loves and always says he wants. I started tickling his penis and playing with it and tickling around that area. His penis got hard and he was loving it.

DH turned toward me and we put his penis inside of me, with him in that comfortable position where he is on top of me, but behind me, and on the side of me. How do I describe this? I’m going to have to come up with a photo, maybe one of those 3D photos DH gets. I was feeling great and loving it. We both were. It started to get awkward from that position, don’t really know why, but we changed it so that he was on top. I was worried that DH would start getting a hurt back, but that didn’t happen. He was about to cum, and I could tell it was a good one, when my phone went off, right as he was about to climax, “DROID!!!!” I’m startled, and think, CRAP! I forgot to turn my volume down on my phone and I have just ruined his orgasm. DAMNIT! Oh well. DH says, “Droid”, to reiterate what just happened and starts to laugh and so do I. I feel bad, but he says it’s okay. He did say it interrupted a really great orgasm, but oh well, it was fun and the DROID was funny.

I was going to ask to have him get the vibrator after DH came, but the DROID thing distracted me and we ended up just laughing about it, getting cleaned up and taking a shower. I thought, “Damn, I was going to try for an orgasm”. Oh well. I will try again. At least we are back in the saddle again.

I am also needing to make up for all the days I have missed blogging. The perfectionist in me wants to do a perfect job and make up all the days with perfect¬†remembrance. And that I can’t move forward unless I do. I was also going to quit because we didn’t have sex a couple of days last week, mostly because of my period. Probably 100% because of my period. But I am not going to quit. I miss having sex with my husband. I miss blogging about it. I am also not going to be perfect in my day to day blogs. I am not going to edit or look back and perfect my blog post. They aren’t perfect anyway. I am not a good writer. I love to write. I do my best. And I am just going to journal my days of sex with my husband and not worry about perfection. If I do, this blog will never work for me.

Thanks, and I Love  ya.

Day 29

Wahoo! We finally had sex during the day!!! It’s been so long. The first week of our challenge we had sex during the day, but lately it’s at 2 in the morning. Unless you are in your twenty’s. or thirty’s without kids, 2 in the morning is not fun.

We got our middle boy into afternoon preschool and our infant asleep, finally, in the same time frame. ¬†We were so excited, we were skipping into the bedroom. Yes, literally skipping. We were naked so fast and into the cozy bed with fresh sheets and cool air all around us so we had to snuggle more. We were almost giggling. DH got another cold sore yesterday, so that puts the kissing thing at minimum, or more like a side kiss. So we have to touch more all over the bodies, which isn’t so bad. We are so excited and turned on by the minute we can hardly contain the movement. We brought the lelo vibrator into the bed with us and the ky liquid and I start to put the ky on and DH has turned the lelo on high. I start using the Lelo and not knowing if it will work or not. It’s a day to day experiment. I wasn’t sure if it was going to work. It was feeling so good and it was in the course of an orgasm, and I thought there was a chance of orgasm. But in the past, sometimes it just stops and there is no feeling. But not today! ūüôā I have the vibrator on the side of the clitoris, as that works best for me, usually the left side of it. It was building and building and building and I thought it couldn’t build anymore, but it did, and then some more, and the pre-orgasm is feeling awesome, and then finally the pinnacle of the orgasm and then the rush of orgasm heaven. What we have worked for, what we have achieved, and what we are lucky enough to feel. An orgasm is really sent from heaven. ¬†It is the¬†ecstasy¬†of all ecstasy’s.

DH got inside of me and I was ready for him. It was slow and sensual¬†throughout¬†the whole love making. I used my lelo on me and him. I was thinking I may have another O, but sometimes when DH is in me it distracts the orgasm. We are loving it, DH is loving it. He is going slow, and I did ask if he was okay, wondering if his back hurt or something. When I asked and his face was in pure heaven, I didn’t question after that. DH then went into a very long “oh my god” repetition, including the saying of my name, which doesn’t happen often, and a few more “Oh’s”. It then ended with a long ending of noises and faces of wonder and a laugh or two from the both of us.

Sex is so much fun. It’s fun to think about now. We were both renewed and excited about sex. We are¬†definitely¬†going to do our best to have sex during the day when hopefully most of the kids are out of the house. It’s a good wish.

Day 28

My husband brought me flowers home tonight. He is a goody. I feel bad because I told him last time he brought me flowers that I didn’t care about flowers, that all it did was stress me out on the money he spent! I didn’t tell him right away, I told him later when I knew I needed to talk about it. I guess that’s how bad our life has gotten with money. I used to love getting flowers. I used to buy myself flowers all the time! I hope some day I am overjoyed when I buy myself flowers.

We did not have sex during the day yesterday. There wasn’t a spare moment. I kept thinking if we could fit sex in all day long. If it wasn’t taking or picking kids up or taking care or feeding the infant, or trying to put baby back to bed, we would have had sex! Haha! What is this parenting thing? When the oldest comes home from school, it is over, there is no chance. It is non-stop homework, piano, breakdown from piano, more crying about piano(breakdowns not every day, just every couple of weeks).

We did go outside in the backyard and played baseball in the fresh air. Aaaah! Fresh air! Sometimes I don’t feel like I sit and enjoy it much. We went from playing baseball to¬†Lacrosse¬† then making a fort outside on the grass. We finally came in for dinner and did more homework. We got kids ready for bed, brushed teeth, read stories and sang songs. Aaaah!

We crawled into bed late trying to catch up on projects including a few blog posts. I went into the room and baby was wide awake playing in his crib so I got him out and put him on our bed. He wanted to play and he wasn’t going to bed anytime soon. Noooo!!! We played with him for a while then just put him to bed and let him cry. He didn’t cry long, but by that time it was about 2 or so in the morning. Really?

DH and I start to snuggle and tickle each other’s backs (and fronts) and play around. I told DH as I was yawning a million times that I just wanted him to have a hard penis right now, so we could just get it on and do it quick and have it over with. I know that this is no way to start sex, but I was extremely tired and didn’t have control over what I was saying. Tired brain took over. I noticed when I was yawning that I had remembered yawning a million times the night before. And that sex session didn’t go so well……either.

Well, we tried, nothing was happening tonight, it’s not like we are 19 or anything. We do our best, we call it good, call it a night, and make the decision to end the battle of the intercourse. Hopefully in the future there isn’t too many more battles.

 

Day 27

You know it’s bad when you’re husband says he misses the day’s when we had spontaneous sex. Meaning awesome, fun, glorious sex! And that this everyday thing is getting to him, too. Maybe it was a bad idea. It is hard to have sex everyday. We have a newborn, and 3 young children, we live at my parents, and we are trying to get our work life in order. No worries. No stress. No pressure.

I was super tired last night and¬†finally¬†went to bed by midnight telling my husband to wake me up when he comes to bed. He tried to wake me up for 15 minutes, he said, by tickling my back and body. I finally came to at 1:05 am with a “what are you doing?”. I was not irritated like I usually am when woken up, but a tiny bit bugged, but barely. I knew what we were committed to, so I was fine.

We talked for a while and snuggled. We started kissing and playing with each other. I have to admit I wasn’t totally all there, or into it, and maybe that contributed to the outcome. DH was getting hard but was not getting hard enough for a good while. I was not in the mood to go down on him or make any drastic moves to get some horny on. It’s not that I hated it or wasn’t into it, I just wasn’t giving my A game. DH started to get frustrated and basically stopped because he knew that it wasn’t going to happen for him tonight, or at the moment.

We stopped officially. We snuggled, DH started tickling my back and we talked about it. We were sad, but understood that it is not going to be roses everyday or easy to “bring it on” every night. We decided that we need to make a conscious effort to have sex during the day when our two kids are at school and our baby is asleep. This midnight – 2 am in the morning thing has got to go!

Day 26

This day was probably the most boring sex day. It wasn’t bad it just wasn’t AWESOME.

I went to a Nurse Practitioner today and I am trying to figure out what’s going on with me physically. I told her that I was having sex with my husband everyday and that we made a commitment for a year. She said nothing, gave no judgments, but listened and smiled. I wanted her to know so we would look out for anything out of the ordinary right now or in the future. I have to keep my body well. And I was trying to figure out why I am not losing the weight that I gained during my pregnancy. She suggested a few vitamins right now, and I will be doing some blood work to figure out if there is anything more.

The NP asked me if I was craving sex physically or just having sex because we committed? I told her 6 out of 7 times it was the commitment, and the other because I was wanting it. ¬†I still didn’t use the word “craving”. She said it will be interesting to see when we get my body back to a normal balance if my sexual desires change. NP says that she has women in their 70’s saying “I knew I had it in me, that I could get IT back”. Meaning the sexual libido back. It’s not that I hate sex, because I don’t, but most of the time I don’t start loving sex until we “get into” it. It’s the before sex that keeps me from having sex. But¬†wouldn’t¬†it be AWESOME if I craved sex and was horny and couldn’t wait to “get a room”? That would be awesome. Especially with 3 kids and 10 years of marriage!

DH and I got into bed and chatted and cuddled. I started getting bugged that he was kissing me all over while I was finishing a ¬†text and that the baby started to cry.”Stop kissing me, get the baby”. The babes usually starts to wake up around the time we go to bed.

After I fed the little one, we started kissing and touching. We started out, side to side, or face to face, then ended up where DH was on top of me while I was in the side position. Every other leg position. Does that make sense? If I was DH I would have a photo or better yet, a 3D photo of our sex position.

DH came. He said it was good. I need a new vibrator. The End.

 

Day 25

Today was a day about the in-laws. We had a family lunch that we spent the day at their house hanging out with everyone and all the kids playing. It was a lot of fun and good bonding time.

Day 25 and we are having sex, yet again. We came home from a day of family and had a few moments of chill out time. I cannot focus on finishing my blogs from the past couple of days, but my DH can. We finally go to bed at around midnight. DH and I are snuggling and loving being together. We are feeling good and DH is hard and I am wet. We get into a really good side position with my left leg over his right shoulder so I am in a great scissor position. DH is loving it and asks me later what the hell I was doing in that position. I don’t know, I say, just a side full split, that’s all. ūüôā

We change positions of the side split sex, since DH’s butt or pelvis is hurting. DH goes on top of me and we are having some good action and we are girating in rythm and I think any moment DH will cum. We are going at it for a bit, but have to stop every once in a while because of some sort of pain or another. He tells me later that he got an ¬†ass cramp on the side, and maybe tore a groin muscle of some sort when he was on top of me. This is too bad and so sad.

We stop having intercourse and I go to the bathroom to clean up. DH is frustrated and feels bad about not finishing and is still horny, I can tell. I hate this. We are forty years old and we feel like we are 60 and sometimes 70. We are going to change this. He’s got to get his skinny body into shape. And I have to get my large ass body into shape. That’s the plan!

Day 22

Last night I was approached by the DH early, right after the kids went to bed at about 9:30.We finished about 10, showered and in bed by 10:30. Aaaaah! In bed early, so crazy! And so nice. It did help since baby woke up every 1 hour and 45 minutes throughout the night.

We had a pretty normal day except that I got a pedicure from a great friend and we had a few drinks this time. DH picked me up, we ordered Pizza Hut, discusting I might add, and put the kids to bed. I was trying to write the previous night’s post, but was having a hard time concentrating. So I was happy to be coaxed into going to bed early.

DH and I were laughing and snuggling and I said that my vagigi needed a break from the previous nights ho down on my clitoris, so I didn’t try too hard for an orgasm for me. But DH was loving whatever was happening with himself and was super into all the movement and vibrations we were doing. DH came with firecrackers and a marching band in the background. He also said as he was about finished with his orgasm, “You can laugh now.” Haha! That made me laugh! DH’s O was so intense and I wasn’t in laughing mode just yet when he blurted out this request. LOL. I love my husband.

Day 21

Holy crap! And sing Praises! I finally had an orgasm! In fact, three!!! Thank the Laawd!

My darling, hard working, sleep deprived husband needed a break. I made him go to bed at 9:00 pm. I cleaned the kitchen and house, finished a post, and came to bed at midnight.

The baby woke up and so did the husband. I fed the baby and DH put the baby back to bed. We were both up and ready to roll. I was so glad and I am sure DH was so glad that he got a little nap. I wasn’t sure how we were going to have sex this night with DH going to bed so early without me. But it worked out to our advantage.

This night was a night that I was horny. I can’t always know when I will be horny, it strikes when I least expect it. I mean, when I get into sex I get horny, but this was the ‘before sex horny’. I’ve been ovulating for a week or so it seems, totally clueless on what’s going on with my body right now). It could’ve been the, ‘it was just the right time and hitting all the right places on my body horny’, or the ‘I’m ovulating horny’. I don’t know which.

I know when DH is horny or really getting turned on because he breathes differently. Haha. It’s true. I don’t think I’ve ever told him this. But it is true. There is a different breathing pattern he has that I know is the ‘Holy fuck he is turned on’.

I ask DH to go get the Lube and the LELO. Both of them a ‘just in case, ya never know’. Hell, I’ll try the Lelo tonight! I’m feeling crazy! I go ahead and try the vibrator tonight and Wabam, shazam, orgasm! I hit it over the top! Finally! It was pretty dang quick and easy¬†breezy.¬†I say without hesitation, “I’m having another”. I try for a second, better than the first! I try for a third, three’s a charm!

Aaaaah! Finally! I crossed over the damn hump! I guess I was horny enough to have some orgasms. Horny enough to have the Lelo work. It was easy to reach orgasm. It didn’t stress me out or give me a headache. Just pure bliss and a release of some damn good hormones!

I don’t even remember what was happening with my partner tonight. I guess I had sex brain, it’s all a little foggy after my orgasms. Seriously, clueless. ūüôā

 

Day 20

Wahoo, Day 20! Wow! It doesn’t seem like a lot of days, but it is for us in a row. 345 days to go!

I think that I have a piece of ripped skin, like from a blister, inside my upper mouth from the blow job I gave my husband last night. Where else would I have gotten it? DH thinks it’s from the hot coffee I had a couple days a go, but I only remember that burning my tongue.

We had a lovely late night last night fixing some plumbing problems that ended with a clean up until 2 in the morning. Nothing like cleaning shit to get you in the mood. ūüôā

I wasn’t really in the mood to make-out, so I started sucking on hubby’s penis instead. I do love giving a BJ. I knew DH was tired but I knew he was enjoying it to, even though he probably wanted to fall asleep. We went into missionary position and variations of this popular position. We were both enjoying and had sex for a while, longer than I thought we would last. I finally asked him while I heard him moan with some pain, probably back pain, I hope, “Do you need to stop?” I would normally be bugged and take it personally that he didn’t cum, but I realize that we can’t control everything, and to enjoy what we have and make the best of all the sex we are having.

We did stop and get into spooning position. I got my book out and read hoping for a little back tickle. I got one! Even at 3:00 am my sweet husband gives me a back tickle for as long as he can. I married above myself.